Sunday, September 11, 2011

A Little Bit on "Friends."

What exactly are the laws of friendship? I’d like to think they have requirements of reciprocation and trust. Can you be friends with one person in one area and not another area? Perhaps. I’ve always tried to give my friends (rather, those who have been particularly wrongdoing) the benefit of the doubt; I hold loyalty so high. Friendship has so many grey areas; though we try not to judge those who are closest to us, it is hard to stay loyal to those who we so obviously disagree with especially when it hits so close to home. For me, someone who used to trust so easily, it has been getting harder and harder to be patient with those whose actions I entirely disagree with. I’m not sure if it is because I have been hardened or I am maturing. It can be both; after all, isn’t growth essentially the result of experience? I suppose through this, we learn who to trust with our whole selves and maybe only a part of our hearts. We aren’t meant to count on everyone; and those who we do trust with our whole hearts, we can find happiness with- in friendship, in romance, in what-have-you. And more than that, more than anything, we must trust ourselves and our intuitions first- because then we would truly not have anyone.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Where's my prune juice?

I dunno, I’m starting to feel old.
Not in the sense of “Geez, my knees and joints hurt,” but more like the, “Shut it and grow up already.” I’m afraid I’m growing out of the college lifestyle more and more each day. I mean, that’s not a bad thing. I don’t want to be thirty, questioning if my (hypothetical) current situation is also my future and is what I want to be doing. I know what I want to do. I know what I want to do till then. I. Am. Enlightened. And I like it.

But. More than that, I’m getting irritated by the immaturity that comes with living on campus. Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do in the building, I love my staff, I love creating the sense of a community and the working environment, and for the most part I love the residents; it’s the mentality from the select few, the “Oh, let’s do this to bother them,” and the “Let’s get drunk every night,” that really annoys me. Is there an true honest answer for why people do those things? To do things for the sake of doing things, for the rush, whatever: To jump out of an airplane is one thing; to intentionally cause chaos because “it’s cool” is another.

Hey kid, in your future, also known as the majority of your life, there is no such thing as “the cool kid.” You won’t be throwing parties forever, you won’t be playing beer pong every night, and you’ll be going to sleep and waking up at reasonable hours.

It bothers me that a lot of these younglings don’t have a shred of an idea of respect or an inkling of maturity; what bothers me more is that I don’t see a chance of them ever garnering that. This isn’t me being a pessimist; I’ve already seen loads of people with more degrees than me, more years than me, more talent than me, more money than me that act eight years younger than me. And they aren’t aware of it, but they are proud of the few, non-beneficial things that they’ve done. My brain and abilities, what I can and will do, are my prides and therein lies the difference.

GROWTH. EXPERIENCE. MATURITY. That is life. That is every day, even if you don’t feel it, even if you don’t want it. It’s not something that can be washed away or put aside. Embrace it. Recognize it. Learn from things; don’t feel that you have to fight it. Who knows, you might end up liking yourself a whole lot more.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Memphis: The Musical

Interracial relationship!? Cue the SCANDAL!
Interracial relationship!? Cue the SCANDAL.
I got a chance to see Memphis (Tony winner!) last night (instead of Reel Big Fish, two doors down. Boo.) and boy, was I in for a surprise. Hock. A. Doo.

I think this is the first time I saw a Broadway show not knowing what to expect (Xanadu- I don't think anyone knew what to expect; my first time seeing Les Miserables, I was too young to grasp the concepts. Liked the music though). Something about rhythm and blues, rock and roll, integration, what have you? More specifically, a white man gets a radio job, begins to play "race music" on a predominantly white station (with an affinity for Roy Rogers), falls in love with a budding black singer, and fights for integration while rarely dealing with the consequences? Sure! I mean, I liked Hairspray.

Integration? Check. Love story? Check. Jerome Robbins? Check.
Integration? Check. Love story? Check.
Jerome Robbins' inspired choreography? Check.
The music, the choreography (Sergio Trujillo has a bunch of Jerome Robbins' works under his belt) is amazing. It was enough to keep me happy for the entire night. It's fun, it's snazzy, it's modern yet classical Broadway. It was refreshing to see something 95% original. The costumes, something I rarely pay attention to, were to die for, particularly Felicia's dresses. And the set design was something I had never seen; one minute you're downstairs in the club with the sidewalk visible in the upper windows, the next, you're in a department store or radio station. That alone exceeded my expectations. Conceptually, visually, Memphis succeeded on every level.

"Not" supposed to be Little Richard. Or James Brown.
"NOT" a nod to Little Richard. Or James Brown. Or anyone else.
It did fail in some areas though. The simple story was a bit weak and definitely fantasized- integration on the television and radio would definitely not be that easy. I know Hairspray made it look easy, but Hairspray didn't deny its comical nature and completely accepted that it was a happy-go-lucky. There was a murky balance between comedy and seriousness. It seemed like it didn't know where to go and was unconvinced in either aspect, and as a result, both sides were, well... half-assed. It was trying to be normal while trying to be Superman as well. As a result, I didn't care about the story so much as I cared about the next toe-tapping number; I didn't care for Huey as much as I cared for the supporting character of Gator; and I was more excited for the ensemble pieces than the solos. And I didn't know whether to love Huey or hate him; his ignorance was both sweet and irritating. I was satisfied with the ending, "Oh okay. That's nice"- but not in an overwhelming matter, rather thinking "This is a great song!" But was I looking for perfection? No. There's only so many times I can be absolutely blown away, like with Les Miserables or The Producers. I was looking for some feel-good entertainment. I got it.

More than anything, Memphis is FUN. It has memorable performances from all the characters, all of which require a mad amount of talent. We get to see Montego Glover and dozens of other performers at their finest. The music is really layered and rich and fits the time period perfectly. There's enough gospel to inspire and enough rhythm and blues to dance to. There's references to Michael Jackson, James Brown, Dick Clark. And the character of Mama, as she accepts that the world is getting a little smaller? Priceless.

Where Memphis wins is in its enthusiasm to perform its biggest and best numbers- where the dancers can really shine and the singers can belt. That was enough for me to thoroughly enjoy and even sing the end number on the ride back. Highly recommended, though I wouldn't say to get too invested in the story; just sit back and let your eyes and ears feast.
Don't be fooled. This guy can get BUSY.
Don't be fooled. This guy can get BUSY.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Don't judge. There is such a thing as a logical, proper rebound.

Did you know that I apparently have a masculine mentality of a thirty two year old woman?

First things off: I'm not going to pretend I am a completely innocent woman; and my admittance of that and the following (as well as my super-classy presentation, might I say) sets me apart from the majority of peers/members of both sexes. Perhaps it is my unwavering, unfailing faith in that cliched phrase, "The facts speak for themselves"; or it could be attributed to my acknowledgment, not denial, of said-facts. Whatever the case, understand that I attempt to be as logical and as reasonable as possible; in 75% of situations, I believe that personal emotions can actually hamper sympathy and detract form the truth.

Not this kind.
Back to the title: Contrary to popular belief, rebounds are not entirely useless; in fact, they are more helpful than people give them credit for. They are often misunderstood, misused devices, mostly when it is not realized or acknowledged as such. A rebound can be used to one's advantage; but it needs to be recognized and not denied for its full effect to work.

Yes, I had one recently (not a "full" one by some standards), and it was needed. I will try to explain as much as I can so some people do not get the wrong impression of me (i.e. judge me as something I am not because they do not truly know me or the circumstances which surround said-rebound). I am aware that people will always judge; it is a natural instinct I cannot prevent. However, what I can do is explain myself as honestly as possible so that, for the right people, the quality of human understanding (that I believe so strongly in) can take precedence over the urge to jump to conclusions (something I also like to call "stirring the pot).

If you have been following this blog (I know, it's hard when I update so little), you would know that 2011 and I aren't BFF. Forever clouding over the more important subjects I should be worrying about is the victimization of my personal life, better known as four years of romantic hell that suddenly decides to rampage my life when I think I'm in the clear. When my semester ended, I boarded a plane for Rome and proceeded to have the best month of my life.

My ultimate goal on the trip was to enjoy life and other people, on my own, as I have for so long- however, I had forgotten how. Prior to this, I had been forced to experience how someone can bring my entire morale down and my subsequent attitude towards life and others was incredibly negative. Any sort of learning and experience I prided myself on was suddenly shattered.

We, as people, base our lives on our connections to one another, always desire for feel needed and wanted, the constant pressure of companionship (not necessarily romantic). I feel that over the past few years and in my maturity into a woman, I have become reasonably (an much more swiftly than others) independent, confident, patient, motivated, ambitious, and straightforward in my emotions and relationships. In finding myself in the unfamiliar state of vulnerability, I admit, I welcomed that feeling of being needed and wanted. Enter rebound.

I knew what it was. I took it for what it was. I was not looking to completely fill a void, because (despite what Cosmo tells you) people never really heal. I did not search for something more. I did not look to replace, but rather substitute.

Is it what I needed? Yes. However, by no means did I want to keep it: the rebound-relationship did its job though it was nothing terribly special and there was nothing about it that I would feel compelled to explore further. Though it may not have been spectacularly, intellectually ideal or interesting, the superficial and purely physical (ahem, not that physical, you pervs) and ridiculously frivolous distracted me for a good amount of days which was what I was looking for.

I understand it is this exact admittance of meaninglessness and lacking purpose is what people may find confusing and wrong; but it would be worse of me to claim that I was searching for something long-lasting and that I had found it, when I definitely had not. List of given circumstances: my wrecked state of mind, a quite uncomfortable age gap (of mostly mental integrity and maturity), and the most unreasonable of distances. It would be blasphemy if suddenly, I were willing to look over these things; I never have and I never will make exceptions: if the signs in the jungle point to a tiger, I'd rather take the time to find the ones that point to a village. To hope for perfect companionship would have been entirely unreasonable and unfair. Truthfully, I am grateful for the many imperfections this particular person had because it was much easier to let go than had I become attached.

For short bursts, I forgot about the previous relationships; and when I now look upon it, it does hurt less. Why? Through my adventures and meetings of new people, I was reminded of my belief of the human race's nonstop search for companionship with each other, paired with my firm disbelief in soul mates. My happiness, my misery, does not depend on just one entity. My feminine mentality and my independence was finally returned to me and I am happy for it. I was able to regain my womanly integrity and strength that I have worked to hard to build. My motivation to find what I want in and from people has returned.

In admitting my reasons, actions, and after-effects of a rebound, what does that make me? It is so hard to judge a good explanation, though it seems to happen often.

For the person who did judge me as "like that," (which I'm sure most of us know the connotations): you clearly do not know me. What did you think I was like then? You do not know my philosophies and theories, my firm hand on my own morals and values and why I have them. You cannot ignorantly judge those who you do not even try to know; this is a treason against logic and what makes us human. I have tried as often as possible to get to know people without judging them; but this is difficult when it is not reciprocated, especially by the rudest and most obscene of people. Nevertheless, I find myself sometimes defending those who have most wrongly offended me; perhaps I put too much faith in the simplest of people, which only further demonstrates patience and willingness to learn over stupidity. It is situations like these that show people's true colors. Those who unfairly judge will never be considered our true friends simply because they do not attempt to understand a person's core at it's most honest and vulnerable state; but this only does an injustice to themselves as they are detached from the compassionate essence of humanity.

Space Filler

A brief summery of my trip aka THE BEST MONTH OF MY LIFE. Yes, this is a space filler until I have something more interesting to put.

No kidding, I have a Tumblr?

Wow. I forgot I already set one of these up. I've taken a huge break from blogging, but am trying to come back. Mostly, I've been over at here (sparingly, as you can see) because they let me just write and write without getting caught up in too much else. Plus, they have easy set ups and layout changes. But I'll give Tumblr a decent, fair whirl around this time as well.

What have I been up to? Touring across the pond. Working. Attempting to watch all seasons of The Ultimate Fighter, including the past two (that's a total of thirteen). Rejoicing over the comeback of the NFL. (With those last two points, still not a lesbian. Sorry. Here's some girly stuff:) Telling myself not to go shopping. Being really excited for my cousin's wedding and the heels I have for it. Trying to mentally prepare myself for the shit-ton of work that's coming up in the fall. My master's degree is ever looming before me. We'll see how that goes.

On top of all that, I FEEL WICKED OLD. I'll end this with two quotes from the ever-wise Bilbo Baggins, that I may or may not elaborate on in the near future.

"I'm old, Gandalf. I know I don't look it, but I'm beginning to feel it in my heart. I feel... thin. Sort of stretched, like... butter scraped over too much bread. I need a holiday. A very long holiday."

"Age, it seems, has finally caught up with me."

Mid-life crisis already? Bring it on, biznatches.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

So I'm Back in the U.S........

Believe it or not, I did write something while I was in London; it needs to be seriously edited and confronts the topic of the rebound. Not just any kind of rebound, but a well explained one. Merlin! There is such a thing!



Had a fantastic time in Europe though. Pictures are starting to be thrown up on my Facebook, though you need to be my "friend" to see them. It wasn't just the sights for me, but a mode of rebuilding and rediscovering myself.

You see (I could rival J.K. Rowling with these frequent revisits of what my past few months have been like) after a not-so-good first half of 2011, I lost a lot of myself; and I'm really angry about that. I think I really matured in 2010, really grew from everything I was taught and experienced; but the roughness of 2011 caused me to lose much of my mindset and perhaps a bit of my sanity. I lost focus of my views on people. Needless to say, when I got to Europe, I switched my brain off; and started afresh with the people I was traveling with.


Different kinds of people. People I like. People I don't. I'd like to like them all, but that's impossible unless 1> you don't have a brain or 2> you worry about being well-liked yourself. (I'm fairly easy to please, to get along with, unless 1> you're overtly dumb, past the point of no return 2> you're really rude, meaning you're still rude after people tell you you're being rude and you don't watch what you say 3> you're narrow minded 4> you're fake or completely unfaithful to your own theories, beliefs, philosophies. Thankfully, there are only a few people like that in my life; thankfully, they are not completely immersed in it. I can take it in small doses.) I'm pretty satisfied with my 50/50 theory that I learned during RA training: not everyone will love you. That's fine for me and it applies in the matter of me to you as well. If you like me and I like you, we'll have a good time. If not, we don't have to put up with each other- we can find other people that we do like. Simplicity.


People drive my life, as I am constantly surrounded by them and will work with them. I take from them my own strengths and awareness of my weaknesses. This was largely emphasized on the trip with the people I could simply not escape from. Being surrounded by them on a 24/7 basis for nearly a month- yes, you only really get to know people when you travel or live with them. I made a lot of life-long friends that I had amazing adventures with. I met some people I didn't like, and it showed me what I didn't want to be and the types I don't want to surround myself with- be with. I get more in depth with my London post, so I'll leave it at this for now.

This is for shits and giggles. They sort of look alike.

What's in the near future? Harry Potter 7 Part 2 (uhhh, 8/8? 7.0?) comes out next week; I think I've pinpointed what my mentality towards the series as a whole is, as well as the franchise; so perhaps I'll do a post on that ("Harry, Don't Surf"). Also, I'll get into why I really like the third book and the third movie. (Blasphemy, apparently.) LOTR vs Potter? Undoubtedly the conflict of where my loyalties are, and I'll go into that in another post.

Au revoir for now and don't drink the water.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Memorial-Day-Weekend-Appropriate

The past month or so has been four to five weeks of hell, with research papers, finals, you know. Additionally, there's a boatload of personal and emotional crap that decided to dock all at once at the worst academic time ever. (Maybe I will go into more detail with this later on...)

The good news is I'm about to embark on a huge trip to Europe- the biggest excursion I've ever taken. It'll be for about the entire month of June- Rome, Verona, Venice, Munich and Mathausen, Vienna, Prague, Berlin, Amsterdam, London, and then finally Paris (ah, Edith!). I'll try to update as often as possible- but don't count on it. This time, I'll actually have an excuse for being away from this blog.

(From the process of packing up at school, unpacking at home, and packing again for Europe- I have way too much clothing. I've donated a lot and that makes me feel good. Some girl is getting a kick ass pair of shoes somewhere.)

This really couldn't have come at a better time for a big trip- 2011 hasn't been completely horrid to me (maybe I'm just too positive), but it has been quite an emotional rocket so far. And me? Feel? What? Anything that can make me cry is either really good or really bad, and I don't think any of this falls into the good category: A heartbreak that was a long time coming, a friend going off to Afghanistan, multiple deaths of people through people (it's getting closer to me, which I'm not a fan of), a Holocaust class (enlightening, but depressing- I look at war and life and death and other things so differently now)... and it didn't come here and there sporadically, it came in droves and lasted for weeks until recently. Needless to say, I'm excited to get out of the States for a while, get away from all of this, and do what I do best: learn.

(I'm a history nerd. Woodrow Wilson was the man. I like to ignore the allegations that he was a racist and that he supported "The Birth of a Nation.")

WWII is a ridiculously important and heavy part of history. It's humanity at its worst and finest. I can't explain my appreciation or attraction for it, but I can say that I am doubly excited to visit its landmarks and whatnot when I go across the pond. It's really hard to describe how I was enlightened by the Holocaust class- but I most certainly was. It takes a specific kind of education and training to look at the Holocaust as both a tragic and beautiful time (the two often go hand in hand), to gain that appreciation for humanity and its skill and I'm lucky to have had that. I don't think I had sufficient training in high school; but I have now. I don't think people understand how much the world changed, how much humans changed, how much was taken away, (but at the same time) how much was given.

As for my class, we were also lucky enough to get a personal tour of the Holocaust museum from a survivor a few weeks ago. Zing! Talk about mind-blowing. One of the most amazing days of my life, though sad. I feel incredibly blessed to be legitimately connected to such an intricate part of history. It was a hard, hard class to get through- but absolutely necessary for the preservation of life and character. I would encourage a serious study of the Holocaust for any prepared adult. I'm not talking about textbooks, but videos and personal accounts; I'm talking about Primo Levi and Charlotte Delbo, the poetic prose of Art Spiegelman, Abraham Lewin, and Josef Zelkowicz. It is enough to make anyone truly realize the limits of the body and the strength of mind.

After receiving a special letter in the mail, I just thought and thought about the subject of war and its history (also propelled by my Holocaust class and the overwhelming presence of Navy, Marine, Army, whatever personnel in the city this week- Fleet Week 2011, patriotism sings and ladies' underwear fall off). I never thought I would be anywhere near it, but it's in my face now. It's amazing to think of what is going on at the other side of the world. Here, all I see are Facebook posts about what someone will have for breakfast or complaining about classes or generic work place- meanwhile there are people maturing in ways I can only imagine. There are thousands of people I don't know overseas, who are serving a purpose and making a difference for the benefit of people they don't know.

Yeah, I said it. Your work place is only so big and only affects X amount of people. Shame on you.

This isn't a pro-war statement by any means, just a declaration of recognition- yes, I know what's going on and I appreciate the service. You don't have to be pro-war to join armed services, you don't have to be pro-war to support them. But they should be appreciated. What they are doing is making a difference. I can't say so much for the marketing guy or the airbrush specialist.

As for war itself? I don't support it, but I will say that though war is ugly, it is inevitable. People can protest all they want; it's still going to happen. I'm going to get all English MA on you: it was Walter Benjamin that said "Without conflict, there can be no history" or something along those lines. (Whatever, the message is the same. Semester is over, I'm allowed.) Absolutely true. History does not exist without the subject of conflict. And those good times in history? Came out of conflict. Enlightenment in the 18th century would not have happened if France and England hadn't been duking it out. Famine, plague, and- you guessed it- war led to the Renaissance. And World War II and McCarthyism brought us out of the Depression, into what? Booming industries, the framework for feminism, utopias in the 50s, hippies in the 60s, and the civil rights movements. Gnarly. Like it or not, war does benefit; and I hate the idea of it, but it happens.

Every coin has two sides- the Holocaust taught me that and gave me its true meaning. I've always leaned towards the idea of balance, as so much of the world is based on it (though people rarely realize) and it was only recently that I firmly glued myself in that philosophy. Without getting all chatty on you (I think this is long enough really), I'll stay simple: we cannot recognize beauty without the tragedy, the ugly; the same goes for good and evil, life and death, black and white, Harry Potter and Voldemort, Jedi and the Sith. One must exist for the other to. We must not reject the negative, but if we are to desire the positive, we must accept it; it does not mean we must support it. Desire means movement and change. Change means conflict of all sizes. Conflict means history. It is a universal, never-ending cycle. We can only learn from it.

 I'm going to try and update often on my trip... Here's some things for the summer I'll be working on too:
Harry (Potter), Don't Surf
How "Black Hawk Down" Got Screwed Over In Every Way Possible
Why "Hunchback of Notre Dame" Should Be A Broadway Musical
Why "The Ultimate Fighter: Season 13" Sucked Hard
I Love "The Lord of the Rings"
... and more.

Monday, May 16, 2011

"Up" is Perfect. Why?

This may seem like a late review, but really, I just had an epiphany of the genius of what is "Up."
(Get it?)

Let's get this straight: I love soundtracks. Hans Zimmer, Alan Menken, Howard Shore, the list goes on. I'm a fan of epics- blaring trombones and trumpets with a march beat, with an impending "war" feeling. I'm also a fan of originality with trademarks, so no James Horner here (minus Titanic, but minus Celine Dion). I was under the impression that nothing could ever top Howard Shore's epic Lord of the Rings trilogy, with all its different memorable themes, epic choirs, and Ben Del Maestro sequences (Rohan, fuck yeah!). (To be honest, I don't know how many times I have listened to all three-plus hours straight through because my history with it goes all the way back to carrying a Disc-Man with me in high school.)

Then this little bugger of an animated film called Up  debuted in the summer of 2009, with Michael Giacchino of Pixar and "Lost" fame heading the orchestra, and turned my world upside down. Or maybe just took it into the sky with a bunch of balloons:


Naturally intrigued by the Pixar label (when do they not put out something good?), I immediately established that I needed to see this. How could you top Wall-E? And Eeeeeeeeva?

My first- and still standing- impression of Up: it is by far one of the most achingly, painfully beautiful films ever made. It did take me a while, however, to figure out why this film was so deeply resonating and emotional. Of course, the visuals are magnificent (Pixar is so reliable in that way): the bright and bold colors are used in this film like no other, not even Monsters, Inc. The details on the characters are ridiculously breathtaking and comical. However, neither of these typical Pixar stamps are the greatest part of Up. The visuals do not give way to the meanings of emotions behind the story; while they are striking, they do not represent what the story is supposed to make you feel. They amaze your rather than make you feel. The contrast between life and death; the difficulty of moving on after a loved one, life partner has passed away; the seamless, fluid movement between tragedy and comedy- it is all reflected in the music by Michael Giacchino. The definitive element of Up lies within a single tune- Ellie's theme.

Like Shore does in LOTR, Giacchino looks for different themes and motifs for each of the characters; however, what sets him apart from Shore is his ingenious ability to shape and mold those motifs according to the situation they are in; in this particular case, he tinkled around on a piano for a single chord that might be able to express the contrasting emotions of happiness and sadness and the state of beauty of both. Genius. One chord? Are you serious? Ellie's theme, arguably the most used melody, is by far one of the most versatile, meaningful, and memorable themes written in the past ten years; when I say "achingly, painfully beautiful," I am referring directly to this piece of music. There simply is no other way to describe it. In the sequence "Married Life" and its four short minutes, Giacchino and Pixar tell the story of two lives together through the song without any dialogue- an amazing feat, considering the magnitude and depth of its content. The music is not just a background factor: it perfectly mirrors the roller coaster of admiration that Carl and Ellie take together:


Watch that without crying, I dare you. I'm a sap, not an oak.

The composition of the tune is incredible within itself- it's really just a few chords. It is so simple, so quiet, and at the same time so effective and flexible. It is astounding to think about all the different ways Giacchino was able to pull this simplistic melody and its final effect on the viewers. The amazing thing about Ellie's theme is how I don't need to think of the film to feel the emotions. The initial tune on the piano has a naturally playful, innocent, endearing feel to it. Giacchino takes this away simply by slowing it down and highlighting the piano- sadness. The pain of moving on from a loved one's death- adding a small orchestra to play the counter melody. The growth of courage- a full orchestra, playing it in a waltz form. A highlight of what is beautiful in one's life- a full orchestra, slowed down, legato. Speeding it up with trumpets and a full drum beat, staccato- adventure. It just grows and grows throughout the film. While doing all of this in all its forms, it always keeps its hopeful and youthful imagination; more importantly, it keeps both sad and happy emotions at all times, no matter what the scenario is. There is something so simple and honest about it. It becomes the most important form of narrative of the film.

Primarily, it is used to reflect Carl's growth as he comes to terms with Ellie's death from the beginning to the end of the film- from playful and merry to slow and somber to finally acceptance and understanding, with a bit of a skip to it. While it plays in all its various forms, the audience is forever reminded of her impact and importance in Carl's life; the memory of their relationship is haunting and always present.  She is with him when he goes on his adventure, she is with him when he is sitting by himself, she is with him as he finds a new friendship, when he builds courage, finds his strength and motivation, discovers an abnormally tall and colorful bird, as he fights off the villains- and the tune evolves with each new scenario. The fact that it is played for seven minutes over the end credits in all the formats (also over pictures of Carl's life after Ellie) tells us the she is the unseen driving force behind the entire film and this is told wordlessly through the music. 

In one, simple tune. Amazing.

 I keep repeating the word "simple," and I hate repeating words so often but there really is no other word to describe what makes this score so resonating. Its life is in its simplicity. It is effortlessly beautiful, painstakingly reflective, and heart-breakingly hopeful, all in one. It doesn't need sappy lyrics or blasting trumpets to get the point across. Giacchino presents all the themes and characters of the film to us in, really, what's maybe fifteen or twenty seconds of music. There is no other soundtrack that evokes such strong emotions as Up. I'm not sure if he will ever to be able to top his accomplishment of Up; this might just be the definitive piece of his career. He should be proud of it. It truly is magnificent.

(I wrote this before watching the next video, soooooo I'm surprised that some of I said is in there. Watch for more genius.)

Monday, May 9, 2011

Sit Patiently, Please.

Finals. Crunch time. You know the deal. Won't be around for about two weeks. I'll be drowning in paperwork. Hooray. Will update ASAP. For reals.

Friday, April 29, 2011

Bad Things Come In Three?

So this week(more like past two days, come to think of it), that whole theory that "Bad Things Come In Three" knocked on my door, in the form of things breaking or just not working properly. I'm thankful it wasn't anything major. If it had been my laptop (Gandalf) or car (McGyver D), I would probably have thrown myself off the JFT or something.
  1.  I stepped on my favorite sunglasses. I know, my fault.
  2. My phone not only decided that it wanted to turn off the ear speaker (thus I looked like an obnoxious fool talking on speakerphone for the past few days), but the charger also decided it wanted to split from its wires. Yup. I had to pull a Jason Bourne two nights ago, shedding the wires from the rubber casings and twisting them around the little nubs. (Maybe that counts as two?)
  3. The water in my building decided it wanted to be defective, thus leading to campus turning off our water- and only OUR water- resulting in mass chaos from everyone. I felt so terrible for my residents- they couldn't shower or brush their teeth or (grossest part) flush their toilets for the majority of the day and the worst part was this was from 7 am to 1 pm, the time when they are normally getting ready for class. I had residents going to Hasbrouck to go to the bathroom and brush their teeth. Half of them didn't go to class because of it. The other half stopped me on their way to classes ("I couldn't brush my teeth this morning." "You know our water doesn't work?" "I didn't findout I couldn't flush my toilet until I had already went.") We had absolutely no notification. I'm not sure if that is even legal. Thanks New Paltz.
Sounds like quite a trip, eh? Quite exciting. And to top it all off, I planned to get some of my work done and I have not yet. I need to write about thirty pages of research in two weeks. Yay. Wish me luck.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Yeah, I did that.

Enjoy the new design and the tons of bullshitting that comes later. I was inspired by my color choices for the Academy Awards article. As much as I love the old one, I feel that I have grown up in the past few months- this really reflects it (books = English MA!), though I'm getting the impression from my colors, I should have waited till autumn. Or maybe I belong in Gryffindor. Wait, I'm a Slytherin fan.

I've also included some of the most important sayings I've found from a few of my favorite people- I attempt to live up to these every day (but probably fail).

Enjoy the numerous Facebook and Twitter plugs- everyone else shamelessly promotes themselves at one point or another. The nice thing about BlogSpot is that it's nice and simple, easy to use. I can do what I need to do quickly. (Insert dirty joke here?)

Would it be safe to say that I'm going to live up to my promise of new posts? Maybe. Blogging is much more handy and interesting than Facebook and I always enjoy seeing where my free-write takes me; gives me back my sense of style and place in the world as a wonderer, even if those posts are short and seem trivial... Believe me, nothing is trivial.

PS- Currently working on an idea for a book, but need to write a whole bunch more. If anyone feels like pissing me off/ screwing me over, you are welcome. But be warned- this will be put into the eyes of the public.

Monday, April 25, 2011

M.I.A.?

I'm alive. Been working on three fifteen page research papers (Holocaust: Maus, Spaghetti Westerns, and good old Quentin Tarantino). Ah, the life of a grad student. Should be back soon with some entertaining stuff, including letters to stupidity's population (not intended to ever be sent), reviews of random things, and perhaps stuff I have learned this semester. Also planning on coordinating this thing a bit more as far as aesthetics go. Yay.

For some insight to my life, I've been REALLY PISSED OFF lately. But I've been (mostly) humorous about it, because that's how I am. So you, reader, should have much to look forward to, reading-entertainment-wise. Don't be a stranger.

PS: Someone recently defined my writing as "really good stream-of-consciousness," which I'm both happy and not happy about. I'm getting compared to Virginia Woolf, but sometimes I really don't like Virginia Woolf. Maybe I'll go drown myself soon. Complete the circle. You dig?

Edit: Now just for clarification purposes, pulling A Brett Favre is simply coming back when you’ve retired or sending a picture of your genitals, with an intention of getting some, a via text message. Pulling THE Brett Favre is shitting on all the people who have stood by you for the past five years by going to the enemy and bad mouthing people. They all have very different contexts, so who ever you're talking to should have an idea of which one you're getting at. Just thought I'd clear that up because someone got confused.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Oscars, Oscars, Oscars 2010!

WHAT'S EDGY? AND INVENTIVE? Without bluntly saying it? King's Speech.

The Academy Awards are only a few weeks away. Here's my annual picks as usual. Listed from least important to most important and sub-genred by yours truly! Red means clear winner, Grey is dark horse. And for shits kicks and giggles, Blue will be what I think has a distinct quality, but won't win. You know the deal.


Films Categories: Don't Qualify for Best Picture
Short Film (Animated)
“Day & Night,” “The Gruffalo,” “Let's Pollute,” “The Lost Thing,” “Madagascar, carnet de voyage (Madagascar, a Journey Diary)”
... Right.

Short Film (Live Action)
“The Confession,” “The Crush,” “God of Love,” “Na Wewe,” “Wish 143”
... What?

Documentary (Feature)
“Exit through the Gift Shop,” “Gasland,” “Inside Job,” “Restrepo,” “Waste Land”
War in the Middle East. Enough said.

Documentary (Short Subject)
“Killing in the Name,” “Poster Girl,” “Strangers No More,” “Sun Come Up,” “The Warriors of Qiugang”
Nope.

Foreign Language Film
“Biutiful” Mexico, “Dogtooth” Greece, “In a Better World” Denmark, “Incendies” Canada, “Outside the Law (Hors-la-loi)” Algeria
Denmark has some amazing quality stuff. Biutiful has Javier Bardem. This is a toss up.

Animated Feature Film
“How to Train Your Dragon,” “The Illusionist,” “Toy Story 3”
It's Toy Story. It's animated. It's Toy Story. I'm pretty sure everyone cried like a baby when they saw this. How could it not win? I'm pretty sure the only reason why Despicable Me wasn't nominated was to give TS3 a clear path, because the more I watch it, the more wonderful it is.

How To Not Make Actors Look Like Themselves
Costume Design
“Alice in Wonderland,” “I Am Love,” “The King's Speech,” “The Tempest,” “True Grit”
True Grit and King's Speech are the two true contenders here, due to their dedication to history and detail. I'd be surprised if Alice or Tempest took it; but since Tim Burton's stuff is wacky and Julie Taymour is always on some sort of drug, Academy voters might be inclined to go for something a little more avant garde and Gaga- EDGY and INVENTIVE. However, Grit's fantastic use of accurate history fashion will really help it here.

Makeup
“Barney's Version,” “The Way Back,” “The Wolfman”
... I've seen Wolfman. It was terrible. This category is a joke this year.

Wait, what? We're in a film? Let's put on our 3-d glasses!
Sound Editing
“Inception,” “Toy Story 3,” “Tron: Legacy,” “True Grit,” “Unstoppable”
Inception or Toy Story 3. Really think Inception is this year's big blockbuster that Oscar voters love- hence all the nominations. Maybe Tron will win, because those motorcycles were cool.

Sound Mixing
“Inception,” “The King's Speech,” “Salt,” “The Social Network,” “True Grit”
Very Hitchcock and kooky uses of sound- quite EDGY and INVENTIVE- but more so clever and unique rather than IN YOUR FACE like Black Swan. Particularly love when Bertie puts the headphones on with the fade in and out of music.

Visual Effects
“Alice in Wonderland,” “Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1,” “Hereafter,” “Inception,” “Iron Man 2”
Because you can't count Tim Burton out of anything visual. There's nothing special about HP that the other HPs didn't do- so it won't. But Inception- They built their set. Little use of CGI compared to the others. Revolving hallway. Shoo-in.

Art Direction
“Alice in Wonderland,” “Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1,” “Inception,” “The King's Speech,” “True Grit”
Just in case they feel like not screwing over Tim Burton this year. I would say King's Speech, but it's just what's in England. Pwah. I love HP- looks exactly how I imagined it- but they won't distinguish this from the others. That would just be wrong. I would say that in this case, the visual effects go completely hand in hand with the art direction- Aside from Alice, there's nothing that truly uses CGI as a tool except for backing purposes.

Are We Off By A Millisecond?
Film Editing
“Black Swan,” “The Fighter,” “The King's Speech,” “127 Hours,” “The Social Network”
Because one is fighting and one is coding. On a more serious note, the King's Speech had some really stark shots that were simple, yet shocking and emotionally impacting. Black Swan had some as well, but its visuals were ruined by its attempts to make statements. Wouldn't be surprised/upset to see any of these win, but I'm going to gun for King's Speech. Because of one word: MONTAGE. Plus, they gurgled in it. Confused as to why Inception was not nominated, but whatever.

Cinematography
“Black Swan,” “Inception,” “The King's Speech,” “The Social Network,” “True Grit”
I mean, they had all those profile pictures to refer back to. If Inception really wanted to make an impact in this area, they would have cleverly found a really subtle way to distinguish the dreams and reality but that probably would have ruined the ending ("Is this real life!? RAAAWRRR.") Black Swan might walk away with this because of its INVENTIVE and SYMBOLIC and horrible IN YOUR FACE use of black and white (Oh my God! So creative! AND EDGY!). But for a simpler technique that should really be appreciated more, I'd say King's Speech.

That Stuff In The Background
Music (Original Score)
“How to Train Your Dragon” John Powell, “Inception” Hans Zimmer, “The King's Speech” Alexandre Desplat, “127 Hours” A.R. Rahman, “The Social Network” Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross
Desplat had a really enjoyable modern take on a typically classical, symphonic score; however, Reznor/Ross had a really amazing score for TSN; incorporation of both a classic film score as well as the technological side of things- very NIN, Fragile-esque. Love the synthesizers. I do love Zimmer (of course) and his references back to Edith Piaf is heaven for me. Thematically, both matched their pieces; however, I think Reznor deserves some recognition for his work outside NIN, in seeing that he is a truly talented musician and composer. And Zimmer, as much as I love him, pulled a James Horner and recycled Black Hawk Down and Pearl Harbor for this one. :( Step aside, sir.

Music (Original Song)
“Coming Home” from “Country Strong,” “I See the Light” from “Tangled,” “If I Rise” from “127 Hours,” “We Belong Together” from “Toy Story 3"
I love Menken, but everyone is on a Gwenyth Paltrow kick and only Cee-Lo and Glee know why.

"We All Want To Be Meryl Streep"
Actor in a Supporting Role
Christian Bale in “The Fighter,” John Hawkes in “Winter's Bone,” Jeremy Renner in “The Town,” Mark Ruffalo in “The Kids Are All Right,” Geoffrey Rush in “The King's Speech”
Renner = Space Filler. I LOVE that Hawkes is nomnated- it's about time he got some real, fleshy characters to play because he is so talented; that's enough for me right now. Everyone is ooh-ing and ah-ing over Bale; since he's so often not recognized, he will win; but Ruffalo is very popular in the cult, artsy community and Rush has a reputation behind him. That may propel one of them to win, but I doubt it.

Actress in a Supporting Role
Amy Adams in “The Fighter,” Helena Bonham Carter in “The King's Speech,” Melissa Leo in “The Fighter,” Hailee Steinfeld in “True Grit,” Jacki Weaver in “Animal Kingdom”
Steinfeld is superb in True Grit- she'll have more chances, but it would be great if she won here. Wouldn't be surprised if she stole it. Leo has won numerous awards and will win this one out; Amy Adams is getting HUGE and will win one someday. Bonham Carter should have been nominated for so many other things. She's going to be just like her husband and get overlooked for everything she does. It's great that she's getting recognized for her smaller, more subtle works when she's not yelling at Edward Norton or Johnny Depp, because people expect her to be crazy. Not that big of a shock.

Actor in a Leading Role
Javier Bardem in “Biutiful,” Jeff Bridges in “True Grit,” Jesse Eisenberg in “The Social Network,” Colin Firth in “The King's Speech,” James Franco in “127 Hours”
If he doesn't win, I'm rioting. He is incredibly talented and they just can't ignore this without getting truckloads of backlash if he doesn't. I can't wait to see him make his speech. (Har har.)

Actress in a Leading Role
Annette Bening in “The Kids Are All Right,” Nicole Kidman in “Rabbit Hole,” Jennifer Lawrence in “Winter's Bone,” Natalie Portman in “Black Swan,” Michelle Williams in “Blue Valentine”
What award hasn't Portman won? It's strange, because I've seen most, if not all her work and I really don't think she's all that fantastic and I believe Mila Kunis far outshone her, but whatever. Whenever she's on the verge of tears, I can't get Padme and the words "cheesy" and "overacting" out of my head. Bening has been nominated four times without a win, so I wouldn't be surprised if she finally stole this. (She won't win but Nicole Kidman? Le sigh. Back to where she was. So happy!)

Compensation for Not Winning Best Picture. Jessica Alba's Worst Nightmare.
Writing (Adapted Screenplay)
“127 Hours,” “The Social Network,” “Toy Story 3,” “True Grit,” “Winter's Bone”
There's no way Sorkin can't win this. As much as I disliked TSN, the script was very tight and well polished, as well as HIP and COOL. And EDGY. Who doesn't want to talk like Jesse Eisenberg aftter seeing this? Unless voters decide to reward the legacy of TS3. Which I would love.

Writing (Original Screenplay)
“Another Year,” “The Fighter,” “Inception,” “The Kids Are All Right,” “The King's Speech”
KAAR might win as compensation for not winning Best Picture and it is quite witty; same for Inception, however the script was mehh, not that strong. I expect that the King's Speech will snatch this one up.

Important Stuff.
Directing
“Black Swan” Darren Aronofsky, “The Fighter” David O. Russell, “The King's Speech” Tom Hooper, “The Social Network” David Fincher, “True Grit” Joel Coen and Ethan Coen
Fincher is just an amazing director. He did a great job with TSN. Aronofsky might pull this one out, but hype for Black Swan has died down. Hooper might get this one as well; however, he's not as tenured or reputable. It falls on Fincher. This is the closest Fight Club will get to being recognized. I'll take it.

Best Picture
“Black Swan,” “The Fighter,” “Inception,” “The Kids Are All Right,” “The King's Speech,” “127 Hours,” “The Social Network,” “Toy Story 3,” “True Grit,” “Winter's Bone"
Yeah, I'm going out on a limb to predict a split this year.  I'm really excited for King's Speech. British cinema really deserves to get recognized and rewarded, as it is so much more well made and thought out; they just care more about their films. They don't give us crap like Transformers. They don't have people like the Weinsteins or a Bruckheimer running the show. It's an incredible well paced, well thought out piece of work; beautifully laid out and intricate. Fincher deserves to be recognized; but TSN does not, even though it is relevant to this generation has has some really HIP moments. As I said before, Black Swan is losing a lot of its previous hype- it's also hurt by the fact that it's not nominated for Best Screenplay. And it's not as well rounded as TSN or King's Speech. As much as I love Inception, it's also not as well balanced and will not win, simply due for the fact that Chris Nolan is not recognized- the two usually go hand in hand. This year in general is really good for nominees.

Next Up: How Black Hawk Down Got Screwed Over In Every Way Possible.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Yikes, the Golden Globes!! Popularity ensues.

Wow, I suck. I didn't realize the GG were so close. Off my game. Will be back on for the Oscars. Letsa Go-a! I'll do the SAGs and DAGs in another post. Color codes are same as last year and have somewhat relevance. Red means Strong. Grey means Dark Horse. You know the deal.

I left out the TV portion, because here's what I think: Modern Family should win. Anything that has to do with anyone from Deadwood should win. And The Walking Dead too. SUMMED.

I should probably state that I have seen very few of these. So I'm shooting for all Hollywood Foreign Press politics, which is all glam and no substance. (You want to know why there's no technical categories? It's because the GG have no idea how to judge those.) And of course, the GG have a lot of "WHAT!?" entries. Expect some snarky remarks along the way. (I love those.)


Cecil B. DeMille Award
Robert De Niro
Yeah, I'm talking to you.

Best Motion Picture - Drama
Black Swan, The Fighter, Inception, The King's Speech, The Social Network
I'm glad no silly names made it here. The big battle here is between the artsy, dramatic tale of Black Swan or the generational narrative of the Social Network. I think either one has a chance at the Oscars, as well as the King's Speech; since the GG tends to be more of a popularity contest, I'll say the Social Network. I labeled Inception as the Dark Horse because it is this year's Avatar, with the exception of its originality and non-cheesiness (basically, just the blockbuster factor is the same). I wouldn't be surprised to see the HFPA go in favor of the bucks.


Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Drama
Halle Berry – Frankie and Alice, Nicole Kidman – Rabbit Hole, Jennifer Lawrence – Winter's Bone, Natalie Portman – Black Swan, Michelle Williams – Blue Valentine
Natalie Portman is Hollywood's princess. She can do no wrong, even as the terrible Queen Amidala. Personally, as a viewer of a timeline of her works, I'm really not that impressed, but whatever, I'm a student so that doesn't matter. Halle and Nicole are popularity choices. I would love to see Michelle Williams pull this one out, but she won't. I don't know if you can tell, but I am not very enthused about this category.

Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Drama
Jesse Eisenberg – The Social Network, Colin Firth – The King's Speech, James Franco – 127 Hours, Ryan Gosling – Blue Valentine, Mark Wahlberg – The Fighter
Jesse, Mark, and James are really really popular guys. That might do to outweigh the outstanding Colin Firth, but I don't think it well. He's long overdue, will probably win the Oscar, so HFPA will probably just hand it over. I'm pissed that Leonardo Dicaprio isn't here for Inception. What the fizzle.

Best Motion Picture - Comedy Or Musical
Alice in Wonderland, Burlesque, The Kids Are All Right, Red, The Tourist
Also known as the "Bullshit"  "We Don't Care" "Space/Time Fillers" category. First off, I had no idea that Alice and the Tourist were considered comedies or musicals. That's news to me. Second, I had no idea Burlesque didn't tank at the box office and should be an award contender (sarcasm inserted here). The Kids Are All Right is fantastically well made film that is relevant to this generation; I say Red is a contender simply because of the surprise win for the Hangover last year.

Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Comedy Or Musical
Annette Bening – The Kids Are All Right, Anne Hathaway – Love And Other Drugs, Angelina Jolie – The Tourist, Julianne Moore – The Kids Are All Right, Emma Stone – Easy A
"Hey, let's shit on ourselves with more bullshit!"  I'd just like to state that half these nominees have no business here. I'm shocked that no one kissed Jennifer Aniston's or Katherine Heigl's ass this year. Julianne Moore is incredible talented, as is Annette Bening; but Moore is often overlooked and SHOULD win. Hathaway is just one of those favorites. So she might. Doubt it.

Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Comedy Or Musical
Johnny Depp – Alice in Wonderland, Johnny Depp – The Tourist, Paul Giamatti – Barney's Version, Jake Gyllenhaal – Love And Other Drugs, Kevin Spacey – Casino Jack
What a great example of ass kissing. Just highlighting Spacey because he's awesome. Not that I don't like Johnny... But I don't think he deserves to be here. And that's why the GG are never taken too seriously. They should just nominate Bed Intruder, for the hell of it.

Best Performance by an Actress In A Supporting Role in a Motion Picture
Amy Adams – The Fighter, Helena Bonham Carter – The King's Speech, Mila Kunis – Black Swan, Melissa Leo – The Fighter, Jacki Weaver – Animal Kingdom
Let me explain. It SHOULD be Helena. But Amy and Mila are incredibly popular in their respective films. Carter is just so often overlooked- I hope she pulls it off this year, even if she is a home wrecker. (Where the hell is Marion Cotilliard for Inception!?)

Best Performance by an Actor In A Supporting Role in a Motion Picture
Christian Bale – The Fighter, Michael Douglas – Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps, Andrew Garfield – The Social Network, Jeremy Renner – The Town, Geoffrey Rush – The King's Speech
 Should be Rush, but everyone who doesn't work with Bale loves him. Renner is there because he was in the Hurt Locker. Douglas is there because 1> He's Michael Douglas and 2> He's married to Catherine Zeta Jones. Aaaand Garfield (as cute as he is) is a space filler. I'd rather see Joseph Gordon Levitt as a space filler.

Best Animated Feature Film
Despicable Me, How To Train Your Dragon, The Illusionist, Tangled, Toy Story 3
Toy Story 3 will win, because it's Pixar and is part of the Toy Story franchise. However, I do think Despicable Me was good enough to pull off an upset.

Best Foreign Language Film
Biutiful (Mexico, Spain), The Concert (France), The Edge (Russia), I Am Love (Italy), In A Better World (Denmark)
I'm saying Denmark just 'cause.

Best Director - Motion Picture
Darren Aronofsky – Black Swan, David Fincher – The Social Network, Tom Hooper – The King's Speech, Christopher Nolan – Inception, David O. Russell – The Fighter
Nolan has a huge chance of pulling an upset- just look at what he's done, and it will count as compensation for the Dark Knight. David Fincher and Darren Aronofsky are both names that have been around for a while and are long overdue with two immensely popular films, so either one will win. I'm going to say Fincher because of Network's mass appeal that has already stricken the public. But to be honest, I wouldn't mind if either of them won.

Best Screenplay - Motion Picture
Simon Beaufoy, Danny Boyle - 127 Hours
Christopher Nolan - Inception
Stuart Blumberg, Lisa Cholodenko - The Kids Are All Right
David Seidler - The King's Speech
Aaron Sorkin - The Social Network
Aaron Sorkin will win for his quick, witty dialogue that is sometimes ahrd to follow because Jesse Eisenberg spoke rapidly to come off as "smart." However, I really think it should go to the King's Speech or the Kids Are All Right- superbly paced and characters really fleshed out. Lovely.

Best Original Score - Motion Picture
Alexandre Desplat - The King's Speech, Danny Elfman - Alice in Wonderland, A. R. Rahman - 127 Hours, Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross - The Social Network, Hans Zimmer - Inception
I like Hans. No surprise there. But I also love Reznor. As much as I didn't feel too much for the Social Network, the music was definitely outstanding. Rez, you've come a long way.

Best Original Song - Motion Picture
"Bound To You" – Burlesque, "Coming Home" – Country Strong, "I See The Light" – Tangled, "There's A Place For Us" – Chronicles Of Narnia: The Voyage Of The Dawn Treader, "You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me" – Burlesque
I'm going to say Tangled, just because Alan Menken wrote it. I refuse to support Narnia because it's a blatent, meaningless, cheap rip off of West Side Story. And Burlesque, you just suck. Why is Country Strong here? That came out last week. And if so, I would much rather see that nominated than Burlesque.

I can't wait for the real awards to roll around.